Kat and I came back from Pantheacon to one of our cats dying. It’s certainly not the homecoming experience we expected to have, and we’ve been grieving as we’ve also been getting him ready for his next journey.
Something we’ve both said to him is that it’s ok for him to move on. And we both mean it, because we don’t want him to suffer. But we also still feel attachment (quite naturally) and so we’re also in this process of letting go of him. We don’t want to let go of our memories of him, but we want to honor his passage and need to transition. So letting go for us is recognizing that need to let him move on and honor that passage without clinging to him and making him stay longer just because of us.
I’ve been doing some meditation and breath work on this as I’ve been letting go of my attachments to Caspian. I’ll admit that I’ve only known him for 8 months, since we first moved him up here, but in that time I’ve come to love him and consider him one of my furkids. Letting go has involved releasing that energetic connection to him, in part to give him some healing energy to aide in his passing, and in part to give myself closure to his place in my life. With each breath I’ve allowed myself to grieve and to release, To honor and to know.
In magical work it is urged that a person doesn’t become attached to their results. This is wisely done, because when we get attached, we can become obsessive about what we desire. Learning to let go can mean that you also let go of your need to have control and recognize that it can be just as powerful to step back.
I’m letting go of Caspian but I’m not forgetting him or his significance to my life. He’ll always be one of my cats, no matter where he goes…just as I’ll always be one of his humans. But by letting go of him in this moment, I can help him pass with peace.