“Forget Time to Find Yourself”

Posted on November 14, 2009
Filed Under Elephant, Experiments, Magic | 1 Comment

I’ve been reading Toward an Archaeology of the Soul by Antero Alli. I’ve met Antero once and we talked for about half an hour, and I’ve read his first book on the eight circuit model, but this work resonates with me a lot more, because in it, I see elements of my own practices and experiences. the embracing of the void, the assumption of no form, the intense working with a particular issue or element in your life are themes of both our work. I’ve decided I’m going to integrate the paratheatre method into some of my workings. I think it could only enhance what I’m already doing.

Tonight, at the experimenter group, we did a working with time utilizing my recent work with elephant. First we did the exercise from The Possible Human, where you become different units of time, to set the proper frame of mind. Then, I passed around the painting and my statue of Elephant that I use to commune with him, asking each person to look at the painting, to imprint the symbol in their mind, and touch the statue to feel the essence of elephant guide them on a journey in time. I went on my own meditation as well.

On my journey, I was reminded by Elephant that I still focused too much on the future and past. I was too caught up in the what ifs. I’ll admit, this is something I continue to struggle with. In some ways I live entirely too much in my head and in those what ifs, for escape, for fantasy, but also a vivid imagination. He said it blocked me from being as aware as I needed to be of the present and just living in the moment.

Still, I have to admit that what really hit me tonight were the words that M, one of the other participants shared about his own experience with Elephant. He said he was told, “Forget Time to find yourself.” And as much as I recognize that phrase was for M, I also felt it was for me. I’m caught in linear time, focused on the future, focused on the past, but not in the present. It’s in forgetting linear time, forgetting that tendency to focus on the extremes of time, and to be in the present, aware of the opportunity in the now that I could find myself. I feel as if I heard a key click in a door and since Elephant is the gatekeeper of time…

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