I paint to forget

Posted on November 7, 2009
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I paint to forget sometimes, on a conscious level the desires, the wants, the needs, etc. I have. The paintings are sigils usually, though in someways I don’t really think of them as that so much as mindscapes, which allow me to express what’s going on in my mind and then let it go.

I paint to forget, but also to free my mind. Once something is expressed, if you have a place to direct any further attention or energy toward that expression, you can can then remove the desire from conscious thought. It becomes part of the background. And once its part of the background, that desire can then work because it’s not being pushed into the future by the conscious mind.

It’s a reason to paint. Funny thing about painting for me. It’s the one creative skill, where I’ll never make it a product to sell. It’s a magical work for me, but more than that it’s something I need to keep for myself, as an outlet I use for both my magical expression and artistic/creative expression divorced from any form of compensation (beyond my satisfaction). I don’t paint often, but I love to do it. The state of no-mind, the rustle of the brush, the colors that I use, and the shapes that come forth, all of it created in a place that is the secret part of my soul, and even when shared, it’s still a place only I’m really intimate with.

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