In a Saturnian phase of build-up

Posted on February 9, 2010
Filed Under Culture, elemental work, identity, neuroscience, Taylor Ellwood | 7 Comments

I had an astrology reading done the other day. Given the recent changes in my life, I thought it might be useful to get an idea of the planetary influences I was dealing with. Appropriately enough, what I learned was that Saturn is playing a fairly role in my life right now. It’s appropriate because of the time magic aspect that is rather significant to my life right now. Of particular note as well was that this particular influence of Saturn signifies a building period in my life, a period of creation. This makes sense to me, actually. The last five years I’ve spent cleaning my life out of my own issues and dysfunctions. Since switching to Time, I’ve felt that focus shift from purification to building something new. In someways, even the year in emptiness saw that, with the focus on my business, but the last couple of months has seen me actively working on what I would consider to be a new approach to my spirituality, and to my life overall. It was an insightful reading and confirmed a lot of details for me about the circumstances in my life and where I’m going with it. The divorce was really the final purification, and consequently in every way right now I am free to rebuild my life. I must say I am actually happy about that and look forward to seeing what I can do with it.

In other news, I’ve been reading the Hidden Brain by Shankar Vedantam and have found the consequent insights about how the unconscious influences the conscious mind to be very useful in understanding situations that have occurred in the past, as well as present situations. I see this unconscious influence in how people will indulge in what are ultimately dysfunctional relationships because of cultural and social pressures to fit a certain image. It also confirms some ideas I have about identity and how it is shaped. I’ve actually started writing my next solo book on identity and magic. I’m only two pages in, but I’m putting in a bit of time each night, to keep motivated and focused.

And my final thought is of love and how toxic love as a cultural concept can be. Love doesn’t cure all, and sometimes, many times, it traps us in situations that we’d be better off leaving…or rather the cultural beliefs about love trap us.

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7 comments
Lenibelle
Lenibelle

It generated a lot of magickal "value", much of which I'm still reaping. Now that Pluto is opposing Cancer, I'm using some of the same techniques to help me integrate those lessons. Pluto is far more subtle but also more "up in my grill." Since New Years, I've been sitting with lots of very uncomfortable "rigorous personal moral inventory" gnosis. Oh the joy!

TaylorEllwood
TaylorEllwood

Hi Leni,

sounds like you did some really interesting work with it. Thanks for sharing. I like it!

Taylor

TaylorEllwood
TaylorEllwood

Hi Leni,

sounds like you did some really interesting work with it. Thanks for sharing. I like it!

Taylor

Lenibelle
Lenibelle

Back when I was going thru my divorce, Saturn entered my Sunsign, Cancer. Now I had had a really Transformative (read: ripping, shredding, and tearing) Saturn Return in 1992, so I wanted to ease this transit for myself, to get the most impact from Saturn without my head "going all 'splody." Cancer and Saturn are very Oppositional in their meanings and appraoches, and it turns out the Saturn transit thru Cancer is the longest of the zodiac (2 and a half years), so it was good that I set up a frame for the transit.
Over the course of the transit, I did a weekly meditation on Saturday. These devloped over the transit. But all the time spent in such a focused manner supported my magickal practice in many ways. The astral work helped me remain focused in astral, it aided me in deepening my "astral temple." I encountered lots of magickal gnosis that I didn't program in there. I got lots of surprises and gifts. I grew closer to the Orisa and to my Gawds and deepened my own sovreignty. I also did lots of art work, especially collages, to anchor the information. The Saturn transit really helped me refine my magick and sharpen my skills. It was a very valuable time, even if it was painful.

Good luck!
Leni

Terranika
Terranika

Just a head's up as someone who's been down this path: divorce can be a tricky metaphysical journey - just when you think you're purified, you realize it may have just been an illusion. There are times where it will seem easier to go back, and that's your choice.

The easiest way for me to describe the outcome of the process is to compare it to death/rebirth. Death and rebirth gave me clarity on how the universe works and the courage to manipulate it to my desires. Divorce gave me clarity on who I am and the courage to be myself, and ultimately a reminder that paths can be chosen that don't lead to sustainable results - but choosing that path wasn't a mistake. After all, marriage was voluntarily initiated for a reason.

As a religious person explaining to gods that I am breaking a solemn oath I made in their presence - well, that was the part that I disliked the most. I'm sure a grand introspective analysis could be made of that, but there's more to that story.

TaylorEllwood
TaylorEllwood

It is nice to know I'm on track. I really appreciate your help with that.

AarTiana
AarTiana

Awesome Taylor - isn't it nice to know you were already on track? :-) I love astrology!