I know what you mean. For me it has been more of an obsession, the wanting to know and find answers. I often feel like a kid in a candy store there is so much that is so fascinating, drawing me, wanting to know the how and why of things.
When we usually think about passion we associate it with emotion, but in doing some reflection I find that a lot of my passion is intellectual. There’s something exciting about learning something new or putting together an experiment. or following through on a plan of action. I’ve always felt a passion for that. It might be an emotion, but it’s not quite the same as feeling love for someone. It’s a flash of excitement that burns in a different way than an emotion does.
When I feel intellectual passion, I feel like I’ve found a clue or something that I can then pursue until I find everything else associated with it. It is a single-minded focus that blocks everything else out. What matters is this intellectual passion and that’s all that matters.
Applying it to magic usually involves doing research and or experimenting with an idea. It drives me to focus on it until its finished. I don’t want to let up when I could achieve something if I follow through. For magical work its important to explore every possibility and every part of your process. Ideally you are curious about why and how magic works and you explore all of it so you can refine and personalize your practice.
Intellectual passion is curiosity…it’s never being satisfied with the answers of others or settling for the idea that as long as it works that’s all that matters. The magician wants to know more, wants to explore every angle. Only the dilettante settles for the push button approach to magic.
Do you feel intellectual passion for your magical practice? What stirs it up? What excites you?