Why are you doing this love work?

Posted on May 25, 2008
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I was asked recently why I was doing the year of love work, the year long dedication to the element of love. What did I hope to get out of it, what was I aiming for and why Babalon as opposed to Aphrodite or another love type goddess?

I don’t really have any set expectation about what I’ll get out of this year long work. I can only refer to what I already have gotten, but in that lies the answer also lies why Babalon…Babalon isn’t just about lust or desire, though she’s commonly depicted as such. She’s about strength…some might say strength of will, but if anything she embodies the sacrifice of the will, the sacrifice of the directive force and the submission to the experience. She is about the strength of love, the strength to love and forgive yourself, as well as the strength to face your desires and the consequences of them. Babalon has challenged all of my preconceptions about my own strength and stripped me of them. She has left me at times weak, huddled, scared and yet each time has also challenged me to stand up, to find my own sense of strength, my own ability to discipline myself, to set boundaries for myself, to also recognize my weaknesses. Over a half year in and I am still learning so many lessons from her about love and strength and about my own weaknesses in those areas.

And yet I don’t find myself feeling harsh about that. I am forgiving and yet also consciously deciding to embrace my strength by working on not continuing in these patterns of weakness. I no longer have the excuse of “I didn’t know” (If I ever had it). Babalon has stripped such excuses from me and her challenge every time is…”And now what will you do with it?

Babalon is really about love in terms of acceptance, total acceptance of yourself…And yeah sex and desire can factor into that pretty heavily, because those are good mediums to explore the acceptance or lack thereof of when it comes to love, but desire and sex aren’t the only aspects to Babalon…there’s wealth as I mentioned in a previous post and there’s also honesty, because Babalon is all about honesty. when you sip from her cup, you taste the truth about yourself, and her. When you lie down to sip from her gate, with her liquids pouring forth, you are tasting the essence of sex and desire and love, but also the truth of yourself and all the lies you’ve told yourself and others.

I don’t know where I’ll be a little under half a year from now when this working wraps up in an overt manner. All I really know is that who I used to be even a little over half a year ago has changed so much because of the lady in red. I’ve sipped her cup, while I’ve looked into her eyes and been drawn into the abyss, losing so much of what I knew. She looks at me with those eyes, and grips my hands and she says, “You are one of mine, but you are also yours…find your strength. When she kisses me, I am filled with desire and longing, and yet also with knowledge…so this is what desire can do…this is how terrible desire can be, this is how desire can destroy…Do I really have the strength to face my desires, to hold them, to really embrace them and accept them and handle the consequences? That is so much the theme of love in my life. That is Babalon speaking.

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