Archangel Suvuviel Picture copyright 2020 Taylor Ellwood
3-23-2020 Last night I transitioned over to Ain Soph Aur/Pluto/Suvuviel. The three veils aren’t typically included in a Tree of Life work, but it seemed appropriate to me that I work with them. But I’ll admit I sense of morbid amusement that I would start working with Pluto on this month, of all months, when we’re dealing with the corona virus. Then again, it really is appropriate because Pluto is about death and rebirth and all of us, in one form or another, are going through exactly that.
Suvuviel is also appropriate because he’s the archangel of the present, and of the spirit cord. He ties everything together with the cord, but he can also unravel the cord. He’s present in all moments, because he is part of the present.
When I connected with Ain Soph Aur/Pluto/Suvuviel, I felt like I was at the very pinnacle of the solar system, looking back at the sun and the planets, at the earth and everything going on and I felt Suvuviel come through and explain that part of this experience is necessarily about seeing the entire picture, looking beyond the immediate circumstance to the underlying patterns. I’m not just looking at this moment in time, but all the work I’ve done the previous 17 months.
In the Ladder of Lights, Gray points out that we encounter Nothingness, yet in it we find everything. And that feels appropriate. Yesterday what I felt was the vast scale of where I was and how small I am in comparison to where I’m at…and I see how nothing and everything is combined to tie it altogether. It’s from the Zero of nothing, that the potential of everything (Kether) originates. It is the Sphere of Art fully realized.
3-25-2020 I’m reading the Miracle Tree by RJ Stewart and something I find interesting about it is that he focuses on the emanations of the Sephiroths, but doesn’t seem to touch on Ain Soph Aur. In Ladder of Lights, Gray touches on Ain Soph Aur, but doesn’t provide any correspondences for it. I have created those correspondences via Pluto and Suvuviel and it feels right. When I do my meditation each day, now I’m just working with the spirit cord, which is Suvuviel’s tool, but I still feel the work feeding into the alchemical substances and the tree of life. When I do the work I also feel Pluto’s energy very intimately…that theme of death and rebirth playing out in the world at large, but also in the sense of coming to both an ending and a beginning of this work I’m doing with the Sphere of Art. I’ve climbed the tree to the top and next I’ll descend using the supernals.
I’ve also started playing Death Stranding, which seems like an appropriate game to play right now because its about reaching out and creating community during hard times, despite whatever circumstance would keep people apart. Yet what also makes it appropriate is the exploration of the relationship between death and life and what happens when that goes out of balance…and what needs to be done to bring it back into balance. I feel like humanity is experiencing that lesson right now with the corona virus and certainly it hits home for me, in this work.
3-30-2020 Yesterday’s meditation with Suvuviel was very interesting. He keep showing me flashes of alternative presents, with me doing different jobs, with different people, living in different places. I felt like it was as much about showing me the possible lives I could live, as it was about also giving me perspective on this life. It felt like I could step through and take on any of those lives, but it also felt like an illusion…like it could only become real if I could really commit. The experience does make me wonder if this could be part of the answer to a very long term project I’m working on.
Today’s meditation was similar to yesterday’s, glimpses of alternate realities. The experience is very similar to the initial experience I had with Suvuviel, flashes of time, but never there for very long. This time around though I felt a focus on creativity and each of the scenes was of me creating something, whether it was writing a story, or making a painting, or creating music.
3-31-2020 Today I focused my meditation on a specific question around what I should be doing creatively. The answer I got back was one that confirmed that I should be writing, but what was interesting is that I got to see all these different versions of me, all of them writing, again and again, writing. That was the main work I was doing, above and beyond anything else. I would still see occasional other activities, but it always came back to the writing.
The other thing I’m paying attention to is what I’m feeling creatively in the moment and trusting that on an intuitive level. Sometimes there will be a part of me that thinks I should do this thing or that thing and then I’ll go back to my intuition and trust it and let it guide me. Hard to do because it really means trusting and letting go instead of trying to hold on and have control. But I really don’t have control anyway and so letting go is liberation.
4-5-2020 When I look back at the last few years, it’s become very apparent to me that what seemed like a bad thing at the time, the collapse of my business through the mistakes I made became a blessing. It forced me to re-evaluate my life and figure out what’s really important to me: The Writing and the Magic. It forced me to give up my need for recognition, to let go of celebrity and instead go deeper into my magical work, from the right place: Service to my community. It provided me a job that while not ideal, has ultimately proven beneficial because I have time between calls to work on my writing. And because of my previous business background it allowed me to learn from my mistakes and create the foundation of my current business, which provides me stable income to fund my business endeavors. It also is allowing me to use the skills I learned to get ahead with the writing business in a way that is truly exciting. Even the circumstances right now, horrid as they are, are proving to be beneficial as well because its in the face of adversity that I truly shine and find my opportunities. Our failures are the key to our liberation, provided we embrace the lessons and use them to advance ourselves. I thank Suvuviel for guiding me on the path forward, by using the Sphere of Art to separate out the dross and focus everything into crystallization. I have found clarity and direction, focus and success through letting go and letting the current carry me where I needed to go.
4-9-2020 In the last couple of days I’ve had two lessons impressed upon me. One lesson has been: Be careful with your interactions with other people and mindful of what you are really inviting into your life. The second lesson has been try and try again with something until you succeed. I’m relaunching my classes and this time I’m doing it on the basis of the model that’s worked for my books: Small streams add up to big changes. Through all of this I’ve felt Suvuviel in the background urging me on. I feel like this month has allowed me to develop a closer, more intimate relationship with him and I’m curious to see what else will develop as a result.
It seems like my idea could work. Or rather the idea the archangels gave me. On my walk, Suvuviel came along and said, “The classes are our gift to you, the way out, so you can do the work we are calling you to do.” and I feel that…I feel this shift in me. I thought I would never do classes again, yet here I am doing just that, because for me to get my freedom sooner than later we need multiple income streams coming in that make up the needed income I’m currently pulling in at my work AND allow me to continue doing what’s working with my books. It’s mind-blowing and humbling. And I remind myself not to let any of it go to my head, but to stay humble and remember that I am here to be of service to others.
4-14-2020 Flopped the opening day of my latest fiction book launch. I had a plan, but there were details missing from the plan and the devil is in the details. It’s a learning experience and I’m keeping careful notes on this book launch, because its the first time I’ve created a plan. Fiction launches are more complicated than non-fiction as I’m learning, but this will help improve my overall process. You have to fail in order succeed, learn from mistakes to achieve outcomes and results.
4-15-2020 I’m reading Good to Great and the author makes an excellent point: It’s better to figure out what you can be excellent at, than trying to be excellent at everything. It took me a long time to learn this lesson. I used to focus a lot more on what my competition was doing than on what I could be doing and needless to say the results were abyssmal, because I was always trying to catch up to those people instead of focusing on what I’m excellent at. Now I no longer do that. Instead I focus on what I can be excellent at: My writing, my magical experimentation and being an indie author, and my unique perspectives on all three subjects and let that guide my work. I’m much happier for it. That and realizing that my goal is really about making enough so I can do what I love full time, and leave the job behind.
4-16-2020 Opportunity is in the moment, but also in choice to be open to the lessons that the moment teaches you. You may not succeed in the way you envisioned, but if you are learning from your experiences then you are still doing something right, and you will course correct on what you are doing.
4-17-2020 Took the intro to Bua Gua class tonight, which Bruce Frantzis teaches. It was an amazing experience, especially because it synched with what I’ve learned elsewhere, but also took it deeper. I feel like its appropriate to learn this month because the circular walking fits Suvuviel.
4-18-2020 I feel this sensation of Chi on my feet and ankles, since last night. When I got done with the workshop last night, Kat said it felt like there was a spiritual transmission going through me. It does feel that way. I felt it last night as I did the practice, and I felt this morning when I woke up and felt my feet and ankles tingling with chi. I also felt Suvuviel. Last night Bruce Frantzis talked about Bua Gua being focused on the fluidity of change and since then I’ve been thinking about Suvuviel and how the cord, which is his tool/embodiment is also about the fluidity of change. I’m also feeling this strong connection with the circle walking of Bua Gua and Suvuviel, because of how Suvuviel encompasses everything and yet also changes and transforms everything. The circle walk is about transformation and connection, letting go of form in favor of fluidity, and embracing the inner alchemical aspects of stillness through movement. As you do the circle walk you spiral both inward and outward, dissolving the space and time of your mind and body into emptiness that becomes an expansion of change in each moment. Frantzis noted something else, which really fascinated me: Bua Gua isn’t about you controlling the chi; it’s about the chi mediating through you and moving you.
Started the main workshop and the first movements feels like the tendons in your body are used to vibrate your entire body while connecting with the underworld and stellar energies. The whole experience feels similar yet different from sphere of art. It’s distinct in its own way, yet I feel like what I learn will fit into my overall practice.
4-19-2020 Today we learned another movement and then there was a Q and A, which was helpful for learning more about the physical precision around the movements, though Bruce did speak a bit more to the esoteric side of things. He mentioned that the golden thread is what connects the universe together, because it is unbroken and encompasses everything. I felt Suvuviel respond to that and felt his presence throughout the rest of the day. He also told me that if I want to leave my job sooner, I need to focus exclusively on on the occult non-fiction for a while, to really build up the foundation, and I hear that loud and clear. I’ve been feeling pulled toward writing some specific books including the magic of writing, which I’m working on now.
The third movement I learned was very powerful. I could feel the chi cleansing my energetic body as I did the movements. I felt the chi with all the movements and found that I connect with the underworld and stellar cosmos effortlessly, in part because of my work with the Sphere of Art. I feel like it all can be tied together and I’m curious to see what will happen.
4-21-2020 Working with the Ain Soph Aur this month and with Suvuviel has been fascinating. It’s been made abundantly clear to me that there’s a lot more work to do with him and I feel that the internal practices I learned over the last weekend tie into Suvuviel because of the focus on the cord. Doing the practices makes me feel like I’m vibrating my entire body, through the stretching of the tendons. My energy feels a bit more concentrated. I imagine this may settle as I continue the work. Nonetheless I feel very moved by what I’m doing and I trust that movement and its connection to the path of manifestation that Suvuviel and the cord work embodies.
Pluto Picture copyright Taylor Ellwood 2020